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Goal in focus Innsaei. Take back ThorsDottir. 1 person is doing this
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21/07/2017
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  • seekingmimirswell
    seekingmimirswell Doing 1 cheers 2017-11-17 21:28:21

    He put a card in my mailbox today. He just drove by and stuck it in, no writing or anything but I'm not stupid it's from Phil. It said every time I think of you, I smile.

    I'm thrown completely for a loop. I want to send it to his house and say every time I think of you, it makes me sick. But the truth is I cannot get his violent, abusive, junkie as s out of my head.

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    • wordsncolor
      wordsncolor 0 cheers 2017-11-17 22:19:29

      @seekingmimirswell Sometimes lighting it on fire and returning it in the envelope they gave to you speaks volumes . But it is probably best to stay away from the mess of it. From what you've described, this person sounds like a narcissist. Not narcissistic in the way that memes have made trendy, but an actual narcissist who engages ongoing narcissistic cycles with their prey.

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  • seekingmimirswell
    seekingmimirswell Doing 2 cheers 2017-11-16 20:24:14

    Stronger every day that passes without Phil.

    Went to neurologist today, he ordered 3 tests because I told him my vision is insanely blurry even though the Optometrist said my vision is fine. If I could even drive, (epileptic can't here) I wouldn't be able to see to drive anyway. He ordered an MRI as well because I told him my only seizures this year seemed stress and... Abuse related. Phil beat me about the head and choked me repeatedly. So I'm allowed to stay on my current meds, I was afraid he would have concerns about wellbutrin, it can cause seizures, I wanted to up the dose a bit at my next regular doctor appointment but she said we needed clearance from the neurologist, which we now have. Yay!

    I'm considering going to a therapist but I just don't know. My last one tried to sleep with me, and I haven't been having episodes since the last night I was with phil. I may be ok as long as I take my medicines.

    Not sure isolating and having such a flat affect us a good thing, though. Better than hitchhiking and fighting and going on drinking binges but now I'm kind of zombied. Maybe I could benefit from thetspy, I don't know, I'm afraid they'll put me away again or something. But I'm not suicidal or anything in just... Blank. I'll discuss it with my regular Dr next week. I'm ready to enthusiastic about SOMETHING.

    Also, I Bought A Cloche Hat For Winter, Even Though Its 75 Here.

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  • seekingmimirswell
    seekingmimirswell Doing 0 cheers 2017-11-14 14:49:57

    My poor, sweet, simple minded oriental short hair cat, Odhroerir aka Button (just one button) died a few days ago at age 9. He had a seizure and didn't come out of it. Because I have seizures, at least I know he died surrounded by his family and in no pain. Shawn tried CPR but he was gone. We still have Tivergrim, the other Oriental, and he is as lost as we are without "the Button" or "Buttonhead" if he's done something, lol. He's gone back to the earth out in the garden now.

    Stella turned 13 and I let her have 4 girls stay the weekend for her party. We made a... Well we tried to make a geod e cake and she got an acoustic guitar and will be getting lessons, so she was really happy. I slept for 12 hours after all the girls had been picked up. This is thorsdottir though, I always pulled birthdays and amazing holidays together, not boxed preordered stuff of the last few years where I'd been under Phil's domination.

    I still haven't run into him and he hasn't tried to contact me. My family has stopped bringing him up as much which is a relief. I deleted the few pictures I had of him, what a mean old man he looks like, I don't know what i found so attractive. Love is blind and all, I guess, and I did love him for the first few years. After that I don't know what to call of it, but I stayed through all the beatings and accusations until last month. He is the most miserable person I ever met, I can't believe I lived like that, and I'm not even on drugs to explain it.

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  • seekingmimirswell
    seekingmimirswell Doing 1 cheers 2017-11-08 14:26:01

    Dreamed last night that Phil called, needing me for something, claiming he really needed my help. Relucta ntly i began to go down towards his house, thinking the whole time how I shouldn't, how I'm fine and then some without him, how it's probably some sort of deception anyway. And I'm my dream, I turned around and went the other direction as fast as possible.

    That's a good sign, I think. I wish I'd stop dreaming about him at all but at least he doesn't occupy my thoughts on the day very much. I was literally staring at walls for hours when I first found out, today I'm washing walls so My Home Will Sparkle and jamming out To Punk Rock.

    😎

    Better get started, enough about phil. He will be a distant memory sooner than I thought. 5 1/2 yr was a long time but Shawn and I have 11 1/2 and I need to focus on that, and first and form on ME because I've been victimized mentally and battered physically repeatedly for 5 years. And that wasn't thorsdottir, I'm finding myself under all the scars i have to bear witness to this testimony though.

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  • seekingmimirswell
    seekingmimirswell Doing 2 cheers 2017-11-07 14:39:03

    Still detoxing from Phil. I told everyone to stop asking me if I've heard from him as his name is a four letter word so censor themselves. I Do Keep Dressing To The Nines In Order To Go Out In Public Cuz I Know Eventually Ill Run Into Him 😕 as we only live a mile apart. I plan on not acknowledging his existence even if he speaks to me, I think?? I don't know!! Just that one 30 second phone call ruined my day last month.. I don't know how I'll react to actually seeing him. Maybe he won't say anything. Maybe he will be with a new woman, how will I feel about actually seeing it? Ugh.

    I bought myself some new clothes from Boston proper!! I'm so excited I could explode because everything I got, I thought I'd die without, and it was all on clearance!! And I joined a panty subscription service where I get 2 new cute panties sent to my mailbox every month for $12. I don't know who is going to see them anytime soon but I'm hoping maybe? I can learn to desire Shawn again in time? Right now I'm focused on me, though, and everyone around me had remarked that I'm honest to god pulling it together this time.

    Goodbye, phil. Thank you for your mistakes.

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  • seekingmimirswell
    seekingmimirswell Doing 0 cheers 2017-10-30 15:37:04

    Everyone is balking against this. Looks like I am going to have to force it together and pay when I save up enough, I was hoping to complete this goal in November. I need to call around and find out how much it costs. We haven't had one done in 6 years and my mom's died, my spouse could have died but is living as an amputee, my grandfolks are mid 70s and I am not the picture of health. I think it is a piss poor idea to let $200 or something get in the way of this goal just because they don't want Shawn in the picture, but he's family and been family for over 11 years so he belongs in the Damn photo. I'm doing this for everyone but with my daughter in focus, she was like 7 in the last one and her 13th birthday is in 2 weeks.

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    • ExplorerSoul
      ExplorerSoul 0 cheers 2017-11-02 22:27:36

      @seekingmimirswell I think it's worth doing. Who is Shawn?

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      • seekingmimirswell
        seekingmimirswell Doing 1 cheers 2017-11-05 22:57:04

        @ExplorerSoul Shawn is my spouse of 11 years. We're divorced and I had a long term relationship with some idiot called Phil for 5 years but Shawn always waited for me to come back. He lost a leg a couple years ago in a motorcycle accident so we only really lived apart for maybe 3 years.. its Bizarre But Hes The Only Dad Our Daughter Has Ever Known And We Consider Each Other Spouses Again So He Belongs In The Picture. he Never Stopped Being My Best FRiend.

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  • seekingmimirswell
    seekingmimirswell Doing 2 cheers 2017-10-25 14:28:59

    Www.flylady.net/d/zones/

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    • beequeen
      beequeen 0 cheers 2017-10-25 14:34:39

      @seekingmimirswell

      I remember some peeps from the previous 43T using this, most notably Ru2do (Ru) whom I miss.....she was pretty fly!

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      • seekingmimirswell
        seekingmimirswell Doing 1 cheers 2017-10-25 14:41:03

        @beequeen i still don't exactly understand what happened to the old 43t. I was off the grid when it happened.

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        • beequeen
          beequeen 4 cheers 2017-10-25 14:48:50

          @seekingmimirswell

          The team who developed it, whom we referred to affectionately as The Robots, or 'Bots, all turned to different things in their lives. They let us all know when the last days would be, then it went read only, then it disappeared. I don't know all the specifics beyond that, but I think they only committed to the project up to that date to begin with. It was a good run. I am grateful to them. I found it accidentally, but it became an integral part of my life for a while. I formed some lovely online friendships with other users. I remember you as Thors Dottir. I am glad you're here. There are more of the crowd from the original coming back all the time, and some interesting new people.

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25/10/2017
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  • seekingmimirswell
    seekingmimirswell Doing 0 cheers 2017-11-16 20:29:53

    Must finish master bedroom project tonight as I have a nail appointment tomorrow. So, off to scrub baseboards i go! kicks self in ass

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  • seekingmimirswell
    seekingmimirswell Doing 2 cheers 2017-11-14 16:40:27

    Master bedroom project

    Get everything out from under the bed βœ”
    Clean under bed βœ”
    Clean under my nightstand βœ”
    Clean under dresser βœ”
    Polish scale βœ”
    Go through nightstand βœ”
    Go through pill farm, look up and make list βœ”
    Polish nightstand
    Polish dresser
    Polish all mirrors
    More belt hooks βœ”
    Closet door βœ”
    Room door
    Baseboards
    Door frames
    Bedroom door
    Throw huge stack of unread fashion magazines from 2013 in burn pit βœ”
    Polish Shawn nightstand
    Polish bed
    Wash curtains
    Wash walls

    Nightstand mess βœ”

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  • seekingmimirswell
    seekingmimirswell Doing 0 cheers 2017-11-08 14:15:32

    Yesterday I really didn't feel up to task and it took me all day to finish the hallway project. I finally got it done around 6 , right before my husband came in. It's a little past 9 this morning and I've already showered and cleaned the house so today looks more productive. I'm going to deep clean the bathroom and start on the porch, as my daughter is having a birthday party here this weekend and we need the porch table available. It's a huge mess but fortunately the weather is still in the 80s so I don't mind working with the doors open and the house airing out, and being outside some today.

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  • seekingmimirswell
    seekingmimirswell Doing 0 cheers 2017-11-07 14:20:55

    Today I am going to tackle the hallway. I already reorganized both closets, now it's time to attack the door frames, doors, baseboards, and dust the heater etc. I'm leaving the picture frames out of this as they are part of another upcoming project that I have on here. I'll also sweep and bleach mop the floor with my steam mop while nobody is in the house and I can air it out. I bought a new broom this weekend and I'm pretty excited to sweep, lol.
    🤣

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  • seekingmimirswell
    seekingmimirswell Doing 0 cheers 2017-11-01 15:54:07

    Keeping it simple and doing the easiest wall in the kitchen today. I need to feel clean the rest of the house. I don't really have time for a project today.

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17/10/2017
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  • seekingmimirswell
    seekingmimirswell Doing 1 cheers 2017-10-20 00:00:11

    Cinnamon raisin bread. Not enough cinnamon or raisins.. I'm going to make cinnamon butter to spread on it.

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    seekingmimirswell Doing 1 cheers 2017-10-19 20:41:40

    1 pound loaf of spanakopsomo! It actually turned out and tastes good.

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    seekingmimirswell Doing 1 cheers 2017-10-19 15:32:59

    Just got back from the store with all the ingredients for a Greek bread with feta cheese and spinach. I need to clean the bread machine as it is horrifically dusty from no use in maybe 6 years? I bought a fancy one and only used it maybe 3 times before my existential crisis. I have chicken fettuccini Alfredo for dinner tonight so if this turns out I will be very happy. I think to make 2 1-lb loaves, I messed it up last time I tried a big loaf. I don't know how to work this thing really. Trial and error I guess. If it fails there is garlic toast in the freezer.

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  • seekingmimirswell
    seekingmimirswell Doing 2 cheers 2017-10-20 13:18:17

    I've picked out colors and she's picked out a theme, it's purely a matter of money now. She may be the only kid ever who wants a thunderstorm on their ceiling and gets it, lol. Been a while since I've done any faux work, and never any upside down. Will be interesting!

    Here are some before pictures. I hope to have this done by or before April.

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  • seekingmimirswell
    seekingmimirswell Doing 1 cheers 2017-11-16 20:46:28

    Ok, I thought about this whole i was scrubbing floors and furniture. This goal ain't happening. I cannot even budge that furniture. Here's what I can do. I can do a celestial thing on the ceiling with mosquito netting and celestial ornaments. I'm posting an example from my daughter's room but here is currently dragonflies. And I can access one wall so I can do an accent wall.. Or would that look stupid? Opinions?

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  • seekingmimirswell
    seekingmimirswell Doing 4 cheers 2017-10-26 21:55:44

    Read a chapter in apocalypse culture today, interestingly enough it explored the scary progress of man becoming fused with machine but it went into prosthetics, and my husband's an amputee waiting to get upgraded to the robotic leg. Scary stuff but I guess it does have it's benefits. This book is pretty heavy reading, I should probably find a short fiction novel and something not so serious, Maybe. Or Not.

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    seekingmimirswell Doing 0 cheers 2017-10-20 13:10:25

    I think I am going to sit down with Apocalypse Culture today and see where I left off.. I misplaced it and then just neglected to read for weeks while I was depressed, but I'm coming back around. Not sure it's the best choice of material but it certainly is interesting.

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  • seekingmimirswell
    seekingmimirswell Doing 1 cheers 2017-10-11 19:35:53

    Damage by Josephine Hart

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    seekingmimirswell Doing 1 cheers 2017-08-16 16:29:25

    I just read Bartleby the Scrivener by Herman Melville, which is a short story but I was in the mood for something that didnt require days of dedication.

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  • seekingmimirswell
    seekingmimirswell Doing 1 cheers 2017-08-15 20:59:25

    Finished Damage by Josephine Hart... Which was a re-read of my favorite book.. Not sure I can read my intended August book as I am currently depressed..

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  • seekingmimirswell
    seekingmimirswell Doing 0 cheers 2017-10-30 18:46:19

    I put on my amazon list for the holidays a giant puzzle board. I had no clue they're like 75 bucks wtf? I better work more than just this one puzzle I Have For That Kinda $. My Mom Always Loved Working Puzzles, Rest Her Soul.

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homebrew again 1 person is doing this
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  • seekingmimirswell
    seekingmimirswell Doing 4 cheers 2017-08-08 15:24:01

    My daughter's friend was turning 15 and her folks couldn't have her a party, so I had a luau themed get together at my house. Not my best cake but I haven't messed with baking in years. It was half vanilla pudding cake and half pineapple. I had no leftovers as we had a pretty good turnout and she said it was her best birthday ever.

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  • seekingmimirswell
    seekingmimirswell Doing 2 cheers 2017-06-22 22:45:27

    Cinnamon crumb cake. Epic.
    I try to keep a dessert made, I don't know what to make next as my little one dislikes chocolate.

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