• ahorrasi
    ahorrasi Doing 5 cheers 2017-08-02 04:35:28

    What's new with you?

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    ahorrasi Doing 2 cheers 2017-06-26 03:54:29

    if nobody minds getting glum for a moment, it would be interesting and helpful to me if you could recall

    1) the last time you mourned the loss fo someone, or someone broke your heart

    2) how long till you were MENDED, fixed, over it

    3) what sorts of things helped you cope

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    • MayKasaharawithalongtail
      MayKasaharawithalongtail Doing 2 cheers 2017-06-26 16:59:23

      @ahorrasi

      Sometimes it takes a long time to realize the heart is bruised, but the ego is broken. I got over it slowly, by - excuse me - getting even. It took a couple of years to get even, and it does not feel like it was enough. It brought peace of mind, and certainly mending, but along with it came a kind of ruthlessness.
      I continue(d) to be pleasant and kind to the idiot, and to all idiots, because it makes the world a better place. It irks me and I must have cocktails after I do it, but I know that it's for the better.

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    • aenea
      aenea Done 3 cheers 2017-06-26 18:00:30

      @ahorrasi

      1) heartbreak - about 5 years ago, though really it occurred gradually, over a much longer period of time. That was just when I definitively decided to walk away from what I perceived to be a negative relationship and start on a path towards healing.

      2) I am still not fully mended and probably never will be. Things like this leave scars. I will say though that it is true that the pain dulls somewhat with the passage of time.

      3) cut all contact. I initially thought this was cruel and extreme but really it's just part of self preservation. Things got much easier once I committed fully to a no contact rule. Also meditation. Visualizing that link and then visualizing myself consciously and intentionally severing and releasing that link for my benefit. Sounds silly but it helped me.

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      • ahorrasi
        ahorrasi Doing 1 cheers 2017-06-26 18:20:21

        @aenea that's a great visualization - I do things like that too

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        • MayKasaharawithalongtail
          MayKasaharawithalongtail Doing 1 cheers 2017-06-26 18:44:56

          @ahorrasi

          I visualized the act of betrayal in minute detail: jiggling and unhandsome flesh, rivulets of sweat, the smell of their day-old underpants. After a while it became comical. It was probably more accurate than I first thought. It's still pretty amusing, five years on.

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    • taylor
      taylor Doing 3 cheers 2017-06-26 20:54:11

      @ahorrasi 1) My mother-in-law died about 15 months ago after a long battle with cancer.
      2) Several months, though still not over it. In many ways, I was closer to her than I am to my own mother. Over the years she certainly became a bigger part of my daily life than my own mother.
      3) Knowing she's at peace and reunited with her husband after being in a lot of pain is a big comfort. Prayer. Work. And the Cubs finally winning the World Series, because she was a huge Cubs fan.

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      • ahorrasi
        ahorrasi Doing 2 cheers 2017-06-27 03:34:33

        @taylor that is true, knowing ppl are in a better place, or the appropriate place for them helps

        am very sorry for your loss :(

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    • Souvenir
      Souvenir Doing 2 cheers 2017-06-27 06:09:39

      @ahorrasi, i was obsessed with this guy once and he cheated on me and i saw him talking to this other girl when we went to a pub together and a wave of red anger came over me and i literally put my hands round his throat and tried to strangle him. Im really whimpy and calm and full of rainbows and kittens usually so this was very out of character and didnt hurt him but now i completely understand crimes of passion. I literally just became red with rage. He just wasnt the right guy for me, thats all. Now i am grateful for all the good times we had together and happy i found my lovely french farmer.

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    • beequeen
      beequeen Doing 6 cheers 2017-06-28 14:19:02

      @ahorrasi

      We (my tribe) lost three of our elders this last winter, one right after the other. By the time the third one passed I was surprised to have any tears left to cry. I felt so tired from the weight of grief for a few weeks.

      As far as getting over it...well....death is part of life. Its never easy to lose a loved one, but there is no alternative but to move on among the living, which is what your loved ones would ultimately want for you anyway. They live on thru us, so it behooves us to carry on.

      I have a myriad of coping skills, from this large family, to a circle of friends, to yoga, to exercise, to art, to meditation, to long walks......long baths, reading, writing, cooking/baking, music......all manner of things that lift me or absorb me.

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      • ahorrasi
        ahorrasi Doing 2 cheers 2017-06-28 15:19:34

        @beequeen so sorry for your loss ๐Ÿ˜ž :(

        funny i was just thinking about that this morning, about how we just need to get used to and come to terms with death/dying and how a lot of what's killing the planet is the sick and bizarre human fixation on survival at all cost

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        • beequeen
          beequeen Doing 2 cheers 2017-06-28 17:38:09

          @ahorrasi

          Thank you!

          Yes, true....that and the fixation on retaining youth or on looks in general, but that's really more of a Western and Western-influenced obsession methinks. I was watching TV with some of the kids in the family recently, at their house. I rarely see regular TV because I don't have TV at home, just a TV that serves as a monitor for when I get films from the library once in a while. Point being that I rarely see current TV shows or advertisements. So, I am sitting there watching this insipid show with them, that as kids they like, and I couldn't quite pinpoint what was weird and off putting about what I was seeing on the show and on all the ads. Then, it hit me: everybody looked SO artificial. This is what the rest of the world sees of America, as our pop (TV, movies, music) culture travels the globe. That artifice. And its what so many Americans buy into as well. That artificial "reality".

          I was freaked out by how freakish the people on TV looked................I miss the days when people looked real.

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          • ahorrasi
            ahorrasi Doing 1 cheers 2017-06-29 02:08:34

            @beequeen i know what you mean!!! the first time it realy struck me the truth of that (american tv fakery) was when i started watching lots of brit TV on netflix and saw wow, real looking ppl, not ness. 'young' or 'hot' or what have you, in real roles IE having romances, etc. It was a reelation - it made me want to move there for sure

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            • beequeen
              beequeen Doing 1 cheers 2017-06-29 14:38:54

              @ahorrasi It makes me sad that people all over the world think that is who we (Americans) all are. Or most of us. I mean, at one time Baywatch was the most popular TV show in the world.

              Oh God, I need to step off this soap box now or I'll ramble ad nauseum. LOL

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    ahorrasi Doing 6 cheers 2017-04-17 20:49:02

    how are you doing in re. infamous New Years Resolutions, or whatever pet project/goal/resolution you've formulated thus far? And what is if, it if can be shared?

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    ahorrasi Doing 6 cheers 2017-03-28 20:12:55

    what was the most memorable thing that happened to you yesterday, or in the past 24 hours?

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    • Airos
      Airos Done 2 cheers 2017-03-28 20:33:32

      @ahorrasi Memory is a funny thing, studied it in university. Usually we remember emotionally charged events in our lives, and often incorrectly.

      I am pretty sure I will remember the client meeting I had last night on one of my jobs and how I had bad news regarding their budget and how I turned it around and saved it and shifted the client's mindset. If on Monday they get back to me and cancel the job, then . . . depends on the outcome. Either way, that was my most emotionally charged event of the last 24 hours and likely the one that will stick in my memory.

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    • jlittle
      jlittle Done 5 cheers 2017-03-29 02:02:09

      @ahorrasi I went to lunch with a friend. We're 20 years apart in age, but she gets me and I her in a way that few do. We hugged this time, which has never happened before, because we're both kind of restrictive about our body space.

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    • mchuggs
      mchuggs Doing 4 cheers 2017-03-29 02:14:56

      @ahorrasi I received an email from NARAL Pro Choice Massachusetts about volunteering for Chocolate Madness in Boston, MA. At the Boston Cyclorama. In late April 2017. This was an event I volunteered in 2008-2009 back when I was pro-choice and did a lot of volunteering for breast cancer and other events. I think I want to do this and I remember what fun I had doing this in the early 2000's. So, I am going to make it one of goals and sign up.

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    • beequeen
      beequeen Doing 6 cheers 2017-03-29 02:44:11

      @ahorrasi Discovering that a friend whom I thought would have my back during a meeting where some hard decisions had to be made and unpopular views expressed actually just sat there saying NOTHING while I took it on the chin by myself.

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    • ligemst
      ligemst Done 0 cheers 2017-03-30 21:57:55

      @ahorrasi Well, most of my day was spent dealing with things that took way longer than I expected and just to seem to keep getting worse. Though I felt frustrated, I did not take my frustrations out on anyone and saw the humor in it all, as well as the bright side. I counted my blessings and gratitudes. It was like that all day long and unexpected and unplanned unpleasantries kept coming up.

      I just relinquished everything to God, trusting Him. It's really God who helped me control my frustratedness and temper, to not lash out at anyone.

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  • ahorrasi
    ahorrasi Doing 2 cheers 2017-03-08 07:17:32

    what was the last video/podcast you watched or listened to? (for me it was, for some inexplicable reason, this video of this Spanish Water Dog getting a haircut: https://youtu.be/yuWBNJrFE9Y )

    Spanish Water Dog annual clip
    This is an amateur video of my 3 year old Spanish Water Dog having his annual clip, carried out by Lindsey Dulson (ICMG) of Grooming Gorgeous, Isle of Wight....
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      ahorrasi Doing 0 cheers 2017-03-08 21:15:07

      @stephanie wut? what is she talking about on TED? I have to check that out now

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    • trishrn
      trishrn 1 cheers 2017-03-08 21:57:11

      @ahorrasi A Neurology Today podcast (over a week ago I think) that talked on these points: 1) Microarray screening of Guillain-Barrรฉ syndrome sera for antibodies to glycolipid complexes
      2) What's Trending: video gaming in children
      3) Topic of the Month: Neurology Todayยฎ paper on mitochondrial replacement

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    • ladygrinningsoul
      ladygrinningsoul Doing 2 cheers 2017-03-09 00:08:25

      @stephanie Ha! I watched that TED talk yesterday! All credit to her for her honesty, willingness to be vulnerable by putting herself out there, and for her campaign to raise awareness of the devastating impact of 'shaming' on individuals x

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    • ahorrasi
      ahorrasi Doing 1 cheers 2017-03-09 00:14:16

      @trishrn i've heard of Guillain-Barrรฉ but i forgot what it was

      also what is mitochondrial replacement of specific importance to neurology? I though all the body cells had mitochondria? But i am not any sort of science smarts person so there you go ๐Ÿ™‚ ANswering this question would help me explain the TEDx chat the other day from the woman who claimed that by 'feeding your mitochondria' (a Paleo approach, per her view) you could dial back if not outright cure MS, Huntington's, etc. Terry Wahlis, I think.

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    • nicolasc
      nicolasc Doing 1 cheers 2017-03-09 04:42:20

      @stephanie I read an article or interview with her on that topic. I thought she was quite well-spoken on the subject. We are so detached from others that it is so easy to objectify and humiliate others on a global scale...it's horrible.

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    ahorrasi Doing 0 cheers 2017-08-12 04:08:16

    3rd day using bleach pen on my toe and honestly am probably going to stop bc it just dawned on me what an anti-good idea it prob is to put a toxic and corrosive agent on my skin - every time i apply it i can smell it, as well it gets on the surrounding skin, etc

    sort of a damned shame, really, nothing else has worked thus far

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    ahorrasi Doing 0 cheers 2017-08-10 01:16:23

    finally bought the bleach pen and used it today, twice

    not much else to report

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    ahorrasi Doing 0 cheers 2017-07-11 02:02:59

    bleach

    am contemplating bleach

    bleach pen, or bleacn and q tips

    i'm done pissing around with this awful stuff

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    • ExplorerSoul
      ExplorerSoul Doing 1 cheers 2017-07-21 04:17:34

      @ahorrasi Someone just shared with me today that someone they knew tried bleach for their fingernails and it ended up going away.

      Below was one recipe I found and had started but didn't stick with long enough unfortunately. I wonder if adding it into my routine would hinder the other product I am trying.

      Mix one cup of household bleach with 10 cups of warm water. Soak the toes of the affected foot for three minutes, then thoroughly rinse off the bleach solution with water and dry the feet completely. Do this twice weekly, with three days between treatments. Most cases resolve in two to three months. Severe cases may take longer.

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    ahorrasi Doing 1 cheers 2017-06-25 06:29:36

    kind of lost hope this is even possible. I've kept up different treatments for as long as a month all to no avail. On this goal mainly to see what others do and whether it works or not

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    ahorrasi Doing 1 cheers 2017-06-25 03:43:33

    based on this: https://www.inc.com/elle-kaplan/7-happiness-hacks-to-make-any-day-awesome.html

    "I'm sorry to be the one to break this to you, but nobody will take the time to shower you with praise. That's why you have to do it yourself.

    Most people in business will only set aside their precious minutes if they see you doing something wrong, or if they want something from you. Sprinkling your ego with dew drops of praise is the furthest thing from their minds.

    You're doing great things, so take the time to recognize it. By 5:00 every day, write down three things that you accomplished. They don't have to be life-changing, just good things that deserve recognition.

    Re-read yesterday's entry every morning. If you're feeling low on confidence you can read through a couple of weeks' worth of your many successes and gain confidence and perspective.

    Psychologists call this journaling, and it's a proven way to boost your happiness. Start using it today."

    what i want to do is email things to myself every morning, written either once a week (scheduled for different times) or at the end of the day ("5"). I want to get how FREAKIN AWESOME I am every morning :D

    7 Happiness Hacks to Make Any Day Awesome
    How to avoid turning into Eeyore
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    ahorrasi Doing 1 cheers 2017-06-27 05:34:39

    1 dealt with the somewhat awkward moving trailer cost situation

    2 it's allright that they are not here & that they did not want what you're selling

    3 going to see person WEdnesday, and possibly persons tomorrow thus fulfilling social imperatives

    4 in general quite grateful for all the ppl in life who have helped me, whether consciously or not, move forward. Ppl from relatives to random strangers who lent a hand. I do not feel I have deserved all this great help or whatnot but am grateful for it and hope someday i can help others

    5 https://youtu.be/eZryJ6AWb84 Jennifer Warnes - A Singer Must Die

    BONUS SONG https://youtu.be/pgo71qR8nN8 Oleo de Mujer con Sombrero - Silvio Rodriguez

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    ahorrasi Doing 0 cheers 2017-06-26 04:05:43



    1. other ppl were not as mean and hateful as for some reason i had decided they were being when (when will i learn to stop judging and assuming things about people i don't know, i just don't, God forgive me)



    2. got good feedback re video project - also remembered what else i had to do for them



    3. catharsis mixed with future visioning of hope (or something...) felt productive and at least theoretically powerful



    4. the bread was eaten by all


    5. Bruch - Violin Concerto (yes, the famous one) - and even played thru 2 pages of it a bit ago https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uWy8iibtd98

    Jascha Heifetz -- Max Bruch -- Violinkonzert Nr. 1
    Jascha Heifetz Max Bruch Violinkonzert Nr. 1 "JASCHA HEIFETZ" THE NEW SYMPHONY ORCHESTRA OF LONDON VIOLINCONCERT Nr. 1 MAX BRUCH CONDUCTOR SIR MALCOLM SARGEN...
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    ahorrasi Doing 2 cheers 2017-06-25 03:25:55

    was so happy to do this on clogs but, srsly, FUCK that site, man. I think it's mega jumped the shark. Weird PHP bollocks errors por doquier. I just hope that rat and others come on board bc i can't bear life without them

    1) managing to recognize and innoculate self against doinkery in all its forms re/ certain 'too precious to be borne' folks

    2) managed to REMEMBER somehow how it FELT to feel that aspiring to Greater Things was not only possible but inevitable - and in general feeling better than I had in days

    3) spent nice morning at the cafe & managed to not overspend on overpriced but tasty hoohah in spite of serious hunger pangs (The sort that make you wonder how that sparrow would taste on the walk home)

    4) DEFINITELY finished one video and most likely will be able to finish another before bed!!!!!!

    5) David Bowie - Everyone Says Hi https://youtu.be/fmEnRtMaeCo

    David Bowie - Everyone Says "Hi"
    Everyone says "hi"
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  • ahorrasi
    ahorrasi Doing 0 cheers 2017-08-19 04:39:59

    have to do this because i adore lemon curd and here's a useful one or two

    http://www.food.com/recipe/vegan-lemon-curd-425233
    https://minimalistbaker.com/vegan-lemon-curd/

    also at recent potluck talking with a woman I've known for a while and found out she's been vegan for 30 years!! super amazing. I hope i have more time to talk to her. She looks absolutely amazing, too. I mean her hair is greyed and she does have crows feet etc but she's amazingly trim and her skin does not seem to sag or be jowly at all and in general seems very radiant. I'm certain if she dyed her hair and wore makeup she'd pass for 30. Anyway it's always good to know ppl

    Vegan Lemon Curd Recipe - Food.com
    I originally made this lemon curd to fill the middle of a wedding a cake that I made last summer for a friend, but it can be used in so many other situations. Ive also used it on scones aswell as in tarts. Cooking time does not include cooling time.
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    ahorrasi Doing 1 cheers 2017-08-13 06:28:17

    tldr; ate turkey today. It did not rock my boat or ruin my life (as far as I can tell) and it made me think all sorts of stuff



    ate turkey today like 'promised'

    just 1 oz which is basically 3 forkfuls and it was 'enough'

    i remember the days i used to chug down a 12 pack of beer in one night (and I'm a 5'3"female) and then when I quit drinking (thanks to my first master cleanse) I would now and again have a beer, even the really good artisanal kind, and after 1/3 of a glass something in me would say NO MORE and I'd have to put it down.

    If I didn't I'd fall off the wagon. So it became easier to just NOT drink.

    THis story brings up various issues re consumption/giving things up/addiction that i think are relevant to diet practice, dogma, etc.

    So, I can say I am an ex drinker alcoholic but not sure whether to say since 2007 when I stopped chugging 12 packs every nite or since 2015 or so when I stopped even drinking socially or since last July when was the last time i fell off the wagon, it's very weird, how language demands you be precise about stuff like this

    same as smoking I have not been an official smoker (IE always with a pack and a lighter) since 2012 but have I smoked since then? fuck yes. But do I consider myself a habitual smoker? As in do I put 'smoker' on the Dr's form? No. Even though last time i smoked habitually was in June for 3 weeks or so and yes, if I'd kept on I woulda become hard core again but once again my body forced me to stop. So does this mean it is inaccurate to say I've been an ex smoker since 2012 or since June? I say 2012 because it's easier and in essence true, but clearly it makes me a liar.

    Same with drink I tend to say i quit drinking in 2015 or so though everyone at C's party last July saw me in a different state. To say the least.

    So i bring it up because it's the same or will be the same with diet. I could say for all extents and purposes I am vegan and will be indefinitely but is it really true?

    I figured out that I can easily sustain eating 99% plant based. THis would mean that for every 100 calories, one can be of animal. or every 1000, 10 can. Or roughly for every week, 100 calories can come from animal. So roughly 1 oz of turkey once a week, or possibly an egg white or 2 (bc fat) or a tin or sardines. If I do that once a week I am still veyr strict by most ppl's standards but clearly NOT vegan, not even vegetarian, even. Yet my diet is still vastly different from so-called 'SAD', yet somehow, just that one egg once a week changes everything.

    So far since doing this back in April I ahvent' even had that much once a week, it's been more like once a month or 2x/month. Same problem though.

    would i ever go 100% vegan? absolutely if i had access to doctors, blood work, etc and was 100% convinced it was going well. And if the outside world was perfect, or if I lived in Portland. Like I said in another comment I am suspicious that no actual human society was 100% vegan so to me 99% is plenty good enough. Also allows for random interloper foods ("you mean that had BUTTER????") or awkward social interactions. But so far.. no.

    I think these sorts of disctinctions and limits are important for our own purposes because if you hold yourself up to an impossible standard it's too easy to just let yourself go completely IE I coulda so easily after C's party just said 'I'm a fraud, let's just go back to drinking, I'm starting over from 0 again' or same with smoking or same with diet. 99% is AMAZING and has made amazing changes in my life so am I going to throw that away because for whatever reason animal fell into my mouth, voluntarily or otherwise? That's why thinking in terms of 99% or in general being sort of fluid v. Manichaean about these things is useful to me. THough it does mean I have to appear a liar to others, or I have to divest myself of these labels (which is not even that big a deal in the end I suppose)

    So saying, i had a lot of problems talking myself into eating the turkey. The main thing that happened to me was, what happened to me with the beer. When I gave it up I looked at it and my liver complained at me. So when I looked at the thought of eating even 1oz of turkey i felt a rock in my stomach, and I felt all leaden, like i would feel bloated and like lead. I literally felt my innards turn to a rock at the idea of eating turkey. So I knew from the past that this means 'this is not something you need to be eating' but i had committed, for J's sake mroe than anything, and because of the previous idea that 99% is good enough and it's been 2 weeks or something since i knowingly consumed animal (fish oil capsule).

    So I wondered 'am i just talking myself into some weird food trauma or is this a kinetic memory fo what it felt like to digest turkey (which I've not had all year basically)?'

    and the fact is, it was pretty accurate

    at first i was going to have a normal serving (4oz) but after 1 oz the thing that happened to me with the beer happened, something inside said NO MORE and I had to stop. It was amazing to me!

    it's that whole 'trust your body' thing which to me is semi suspect - when your body is toxic it's liable to crave/want all sorts of bad crap but there are times when there is a useful message there

    i could go on discussing body dysmorphia and associating meat with weight gain and how that trauma muddies the waters even more but it's way too late and i doubht anyone got this far even lol don't blame you one bit

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  • ahorrasi
    ahorrasi Doing 3 cheers 2017-08-10 05:03:36

    more calories!

    weird experience, watching some health videos and they showed a picture of bacon-wrapped meat and egg and i found myself SALIVATING over it. I had been sort of hungry but didn't want to eat because the cronometer-mandated calorie limit had been reached and in spite of what the low fat vegan crowd (what i adhere to to a 80% at most at this pt at least in regards to fat and in regards to random animal prods that sneak in more like 95 - 99%) says, I canNOT relinquish the safety of calorie limit due to my terror of gaining weight. NOt a good situation, really.

    But it was weird how much seeing the picture of bacon called out to me

    so i decided to just fuck the calorie crap and go eat toast with hummus and sun dried tomatoes and next time i saw the bacon sausage egg picture.. i was very uninterested. KInd of grossed me out, actually

    someone or other said that if you don't eat enough calories you start wanting the animal bc it is calorie dense so that's just something interesting to note.

    i will and can measure biomarkers and if i start gaining weight again (in spite of being assured i won't) then just cross that bridge when we come to it. But for now i probably would choose to up my calories and make sure im getting enough nutrients (which i do for the most part)

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    • anne89
      anne89 Doing 1 cheers 2017-08-10 08:11:47

      @ahorrasi I think you're doing good listening to your body!

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    • beequeen
      beequeen 1 cheers 2017-08-10 16:20:18

      @ahorrasi

      I read somewhere long ago that there is a protein in meat that our bodies need and it cannot be replicated in a lab, etc., so meat is our only source. Now, I cannot remember where I read that and whether it is entirely true, I do not know. It kind of makes sense to me that it may be true, considering I actually crave meat sometimes. I eat ground beef (never any other kind), some pork and poultry, and all kinds of fish and shellfish. I have been trying to eat even more plant based than I already do, and even some vegan days.

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      • ahorrasi
        ahorrasi Doing 0 cheers 2017-08-12 04:06:06

        @beequeen i hear so much crap from all sides it's actually quite laughable lol, i mean, the fact that seemingly educated committed ppl are at such loggerheads and always contradicting each other - the one thing i CAN vouch for is lysine is pretty hopeless on a vegan diet so if you have any of the herpes invaders in your body you might be more susceptible to breakouts - there are other things too that are easier in animals like zinc and whatnot. Ther'e also a whole discussion about heme iron. There' s so many discussions, really... it is quite tiresome

        but in the end i hear you and the other thing for me MORE IMPORTANT even than anything the talking heads/wagging tongues in the diet nutrition health industry have to say is the fact that there really has not been any real 100% vegan population in the history of mankind. Even the closest ones, the okinawans, let some meat sneak in now and again. I feel there must be a reason for this. Whihc is why aside from this goal i dare not say I am vegan because i prob will always stay at 99%

        though that doesn't mean anything in terms of the argument that maybe humans ARE essentially herbivore/starchivores who occasionally want or even need meat after all, even cats, the most obligate carnivore of all, desire a little grass now & again

        we made a turkey and i was planning on having some but i can't so far i am terrified it will give me a stomachache lol but i was for the record plannign on having some just be we put so much effort into making it, i will and will report back :)

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    ahorrasi Doing 0 cheers 2017-06-24 22:06:02

    Mmm.. natto..... If someone 25 years ago told me I'd be eating this stuff voluntarily iwould have laughed at them. But if you're on a predominantly veg diet you really need to be eating this

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  • ahorrasi
    ahorrasi Doing 1 cheers 2017-06-16 16:25:14

    annoyed at myself for losing a great half-and=half (Cashew based) replacement recipe!!!!!!!!!! J has FINALLY FINALLY agreed to try dairy free for a week 😃 😃 😃 but half and half in the coffee was the dealbreaker. I made the cashew thing once & it passed muster and now I can't find the recipe!!!!!!!!!!! bollocks

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    • bob1623
      bob1623 1 cheers 2017-06-24 02:02:33

      @ahorrasi Is this close?

      INGREDIENTS:

      1/2 cups raw unsalted whole cashews

      2-3 cups water, divided (1 1/2 cups for soaking, the rest for blending)

      1/2 teaspoon pure vanilla extract (optional)

      Pinch salt (optional)

      DIRECTIONS:

      Place cashews in a 2-cup or larger jar or container with airtight lid. Cover with 1-1/2 cups water. Replace lid and let sit at room temperature 4-6 hours, or refrigerate overnight.

      Drain the water and discard. Place drained cashews in the pitcher of a blender. Add 1/2 cup water (youโ€™ll add more in a minute), vanilla if using, and salt if using. Blend until completely smooth, about 1 minute, adding more water a couple of tablespoons at a time if needed to get it moving. Add additional water, up to another cup or so, until itโ€™s reached the consistency you like. I go for a rich and creamy, half-and-half-ish thickness.

      Use in coffee just as you would any other creamer. Keeps refrigerated in an airtight container for about 5 days.

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  • ahorrasi
    ahorrasi Doing 0 cheers 2017-06-26 18:17:28

    already 1/2way thru the year

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  • ahorrasi
    ahorrasi Doing 8 cheers 2017-06-03 18:55:48

    was having a good year, a remarkable year, a wonderful year but now

    have suffered a personal heartbreak/loss and am having trouble recovering from it. Just someone who went away. IT hurts.

    it is tainting everything good

    also am quit smoking again, i hadn't in years and 2 weeks ago began again so am glad to be 2 days not smoking but damn that shit is hard, cried for like 3 hours yesterday. The smoking was covering up the pain of the loss so now am really feeling it.

    so, nicotine withdrawal and heartache.. not pretty, lol

    and then yesterday there was a car accident, in aggregate not as bad as it could be, so am trying to access gratitude & all that rot

    but i feel just the heavy sad oppression of the Loss more than anything, you just can't play games with that.

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  • ahorrasi
    ahorrasi Doing 3 cheers 2017-04-17 03:52:26

    I like the idea of this goal. And for more than a conditional reason; i want it to be THE BEST YEAR in spite of what $ was earned, what friends were made, what inches were lost - IE without the dreary belt-notches we always crave to give our lives meaning.

    I want it to be the Best Year Ever because enthusiasm was had, lessons were learned, challenges were mastered, things were achieved, limits were crossed, and consciousness was there rooting for everything as it came.

    In the end: awareness. Awareness and acceptance, ergo, Best Year Yet.

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  • ahorrasi
    ahorrasi Doing 0 cheers 2017-06-24 17:20:55

    aaarg, another opp lost when went to bed at 4am and not wake up till 9:15!!!!!! will I EVER get to do this? It's not like i even want to participate, i just want to look at the thing

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  • ahorrasi
    ahorrasi Doing 0 cheers 2017-04-08 04:55:03

    tomorrow my last chance for the present, let's see if it happens. Not so sure beause it is like 8 hours away and haven't gone to bed yet

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    ahorrasi Doing 0 cheers 2017-04-05 14:03:37

    missed my one chance this past Saturday bc was way too sleep deprived - hoping i get to this Saturday because it's my last chance (and hope it's not raining!!!!!!)

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  • ahorrasi
    ahorrasi Doing 1 cheers 2017-02-24 03:58:37

    Just found out about this. Since generally am going to bed around 4am Friday nite (sat morning, I guess) this looks very undoable. However, a good chance exists that this particular Fri nite it won't go down that way which means TECHNICALLY I could do this.

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    ahorrasi Doing 7 cheers 2017-04-08 05:06:50

    i was having loads of fun interacting on the popclogs site, but suddenly it won't allow me to log on, ever, because the PHP facebook whatsit protocol either broke or has been deprecated

    oh well, I guess I'm meant to be on here now

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    • hopeslife
      hopeslife 2 cheers 2017-04-08 06:31:09

      @ahorrasi Lol they don't fix things over there... ever.

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      • ahorrasi
        ahorrasi Doing 0 cheers 2017-04-09 04:48:55

        @hopeslife yes, theres only one bloke named Jon who ever showed any interest of ownership and i haven't seen him in MONTHS. Once I even wrote through the 'i want to advertise on your site' portal and didn't even get a response to THAT! LOL.

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        • hopeslife
          hopeslife 1 cheers 2017-04-09 19:11:55

          @ahorrasi Well I emailed him once back in 2014 and he did respond to me. I wouldn't be surprised though if the site will be shut down soon. He seems to have no interest in keeping it up. It's also why I don't use Facebook to log into anything. They can change something and break it.

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    • wyverndust
      wyverndust 2 cheers 2017-04-09 04:18:56

      @ahorrasi I can't remember my password on popclogs and I can't get the forgot password reminder email thing to work. I didn't want to create a new account so I guess I am done with popclogs for now

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      • ahorrasi
        ahorrasi Doing 1 cheers 2017-04-09 04:48:05

        @wyverndust yeah i already had to create a 2nd account when i was having problems with facebook last year, NONE of the FB accounts work, and i basically ran out of email addresses with which to create accounts. Pity, bc I had a good thing going.

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      • hopeslife
        hopeslife 1 cheers 2017-04-09 19:14:03

        @wyverndust I think the same thing happened to me. I got locked out of one of my LastPass accounts, (bad, bad me!) and I could never get the "forgot password" thing to send. I was able to log on back when the new 43T first launched though, and no updates or notifications were showing.

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    • BeingBryn
      BeingBryn 3 cheers 2017-04-10 00:03:24

      @hopeslife It's good here! ๐Ÿ™‚

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  • ahorrasi
    ahorrasi Doing 14 cheers 2017-02-16 02:09:51

    I first learned about 43things.com in early 2005, at my job that I hated, when I was researching some stuff for my boss or someone. A 43things entry was in the top 5 search results, so of course guess what I did for the rest of the day, lol

    at that pt in time I was, as said, in a job I hated, I smoked, drank too much, was overweight, feeling like I wasn't going anywhere in life, etc. I had begun a new relationship but who knew where that was going.

    a lot thanks to 43things I was able to quit that shite job, go back to school, lose the weight, do a master cleanse, and years later, I did manage to curb the drinking and quit smoking. And oh, that relationship still persists after 10 year marriage now.

    so this is why this site is important to me. I'm older now and weight is an issue again, $ is an ongoing issues, as well as general wellbeing, but this site always seemed a lucky rabbit's foot to me due to the previous good it brought me.

    I doubt many outside of popclogs remember me because I was always changing my username and I dissapeared a few times. I like popclogs and will probably stay there but inevitably am glad to have this site again.

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    • nudgethecurmudgeon
      nudgethecurmudgeon 2 cheers 2017-03-09 06:22:08

      @ahorrasi Kudos for you for making so much progress though! Most people have this website just for fun, but you are a prime example of how being organized and prioritizing goals can produce positive results (going back to school, having a long term relationship, etc.)

      I'm going to follow you and cheer you on your journey ahorrasi! :)

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    • ahorrasi
      ahorrasi Doing 1 cheers 2017-03-13 19:29:48

      @nudgethecurmudgeon why thanks so much ๐Ÿ™‚ i feel loved, lol. I will follow too, didn't see this till today

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  • ahorrasi
    ahorrasi Doing 4 cheers 2017-02-15 07:07:06

    There's a starman waiting in the sky
    He'd like to come and meet us
    But he thinks he'd blow our minds
    There's a starman waiting in the sky
    He's told us not to blow it
    'Cause he knows it's all worthwhile
    He told me
    Let the children lose it
    Let the children use it
    Let all the children boogie

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  • ahorrasi
    ahorrasi Doing 5 cheers 2017-02-14 01:20:30

    missing you so much, especially today, maybe because everyone's talking about the Grammy thing. I wish you hadn't left us.

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