I'll track my progress here to hold myself accountable :)
Friday October 20th
The last time I wrote regularly was when I was writing on 43Things. It became a daily passion. I wasn't always satisfied with what I wrote, but wrote I did.
I got better at it, more confident.
After the site was taken down, I thought I'd try to feed the fire by keeping a handwritten journal. It did my bloody head in. I spend too much time inside of myself, and writing for an audience gives me a way out.
Like cave diving, writing - for me - is best done with a team.
It has been with some surprise, then, that 43Things isn't what has driven my writing this time around.
I started two blogs. One I intend to show people soon when I have a few more entries to submit, and the other is in stasis.
I've been writing most weeks. It feels good to have a project, but (at the risk of overloading myself) I want to challenge myself to start writing here regularly.
I turned 30 this year, and I feel rather lost.
I relapsed. My health took a nose dive, and my depression is coming back.
I don't know if writing about my goals will help or frustrate me.
The last time I relapsed I did so while writing on this site. It helped and hurt in different ways. The writing helped but focusing on goals that I hadn't a snowman's chance in hell of achieving made me a little obsessive.
For my 30th birthday this year, my family and I planned to meet for a meal.
My aunts, uncles, and grandparents were all supposed to be there. I was looking forward to seeing my grandparents especially.
I could hardly sleep that night I was so excited.
The next day, I did my hair and make up, put on my dress, and lay on my bed waiting for everyone to arrive.
When the knock on the door came, I practically skipped down the stairs to answer it.
It was my mum.
She gave me a hug and said not everybody could come today after all.
My grandma had died that morning.
I still feel shocked.
My grandma was one of these people who was always doing something.
She was a cook, gardener, a director at the local drama club, she knitted, sewed, drew, painted, and, despite her retirement as a teacher, continued to tutor kids in maths, English, and piano right up until the day she died.
As one of the speakers at her memorial said, she was the BEST (Busy, Excellent, Selfless, and Talented).
There are landmarks on the road of life that mark the way to where ever the hell we're going. We all have different reactions to encountering these landmarks, but basically there are two types of people:
I'm the latter.
Too busying trying to survive to thrive.
I think that's partly why I wanted to do as many of the 43 Things community's top 100 goals. In your dreams a lot of you wanted to go to Japan and skydive and get your books published, but in reality we were mostly doing sudoku and baking cakes.
And that was kind of comforting.
I have started writing again, in a journal I keep and on some blogging websites.
I am writing Dutch now and mainly for my (professional) blog on my freelance website. It forces me to write a bit every week and right now that's enough.
I really want to write a book. I have so many things in mind to write but English is my first barrier. I tried to write in my language. When started to translate to English I stack. I also tried to go to school improve my writing skills ...not yet. looking for advice .
I need to get some mileage. I've given up on the 'write a book' goal because that doesn't feel all that realistic and puts unnecessary pressure on. At the moment I just need to write and flex my writing muscles to strengthen them. Maybe then over time I will end up with something that I find satisfactory and perhaps send it over to people to read. Right now that is not happening yet. (And I am still shuddering at the thought of that one time when I send something to someone and I know now what a load of crap that was and how she must despise me as a result of that. Gah.)
@citrus Have you ever read the fantastic book Bird by Bird by Anne Lamott? She advocates "shitty first drafts"- i.e., don't put too much pressure on yourself to write something good, just get it down, because you can always go back and fix it. If you haven't read it, it is SOOOOO good! You got this!
@fiercepixie I got that book from a fellow 43er at one point actually! Thanks. :)
@fiercepixie I haven't read that book but that is good advice. just start writing and let the book, or story or whatever you're writing come to you. after you have the basic outline down, it's much easier to fill in the details
What seems to work: Having time set aside for writing, getting started on something to overcome writers block, taking notes when I have an idea and organizing these into an outline later, sharing with somebody, organizing around a presentation or event, keeping my ideas and sources organized
I have started a few stories on Wattpad, but never finished them. My goal is to write regulary. At least once a week :)
Think about this daily. I have a short list of things I wish I'd finished by now. It's sort of getting too long for me to deal with.
After saving, it will be sealed for 2 years. Are you sure you wrote everything you want?
Changing the goal title is basically creating or joining another goal. All your activity and media will move to the new goal.
Removing this goal from your done list will delete all it's activity and you will not be associated to this goal anymore. Try edit this entry instead
I truly believe Augustine’s words are true and if you look at history you know it is true. There are many people in the world.