I want to do this!

Earn my Masters Degree

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  • wordsncolor
    wordsncolor Doing 1 cheers 2017-12-09 01:04:56

    Good news! After 3 quarters going south The universities disability resource services are finally taking my request for a non-student visual interpreter seriously . At today's meeting I brought it up to them again, and they didn't give me the brush off this time. That's great. Now a legitimate job listing will be placed to hire someone reliable, personable, and competent. They're also finally taking me seriously that a better accommodation needs to be created for the statistics software element to my research classes.
    This gives me hope that winter quarter will be successful .

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  • inalomar
    inalomar Doing 0 cheers 2017-11-30 06:33:26

    Processing .. finished 70% of the first semester with excellent grades .. I will win it! Won't give up.

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  • tazzell
    tazzell Doing 2 cheers 2017-11-21 00:36:17

    I have 3 weeks left to complete my masters thesis, I’m working 5 days a week, I’m exhausted, my depression and anxiety are constantly nipping at my head and heart and Ijust don’t think my work is going to be any good even if I finish it.

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    • beequeen
      beequeen 0 cheers 2017-11-21 16:29:01


      Taz, you can do this! You've come this far and worked so hard, on your Self and your course work, don't lose faith in your self and your ability to accomplish what you've set out to. You've already proved it possible.

      Steady on girl, you got this.


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    • inalomar
      inalomar Doing 0 cheers 2017-11-30 06:35:37

      @tazzell Great wins don't come easily. NEVER GIVE UP!!

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  • wordsncolor
    wordsncolor Doing 2 cheers 2017-11-20 05:28:51

    I'm sad. I know dwelling on possibility I may not be able to get my Masters is useless, and counterproductive. Everything might be fine. Even if it's not I'll figure it out because I have to. It's just hard maybe letting go of the dream, my only dream I've ever had...
    It's the field that's my passion, my skill set, is compatible with my visual impairment, and could've provided a quality life/future for us .
    I don't know what I'll do if not this.

    And no one seems to understand. To them it just means I'll do something else for a living, anything else that works with my disability and makes enough money to survive on. It occurs to me that I have surrounded myself with people who either have no 'big dreams' left in them, or have very optimistic dreams, but little self-discipline. At any rate, neither shares my concerns, or can relate to my realist-with-ambition melancholy.

    I wish I knew some dreamers and real-life who could relate to the many obstacles, predictable and unforeseen, between you and having a specific dream that your heart, your life is invested in ,
    the self-doubt and determination, the risk-taking, and anxiety that comes with it.

    Instead, they look at me blind faith guided by this believe that everyone is entitled to achieve their dreams, or with mild irritation that I haven't settled for mediocrity yet like so many people who have made their peace with the reality there are far worse things.

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    • morningsun
      morningsun 2 cheers 2017-11-20 09:00:57

      @wordsncolor Do not settle....You need to know you did what you could. If you've only had one dream you have lots of new dreams waiting for you 🙂

      I used to have lots of dreams but only a few got forfilled. I lost my way and settled. Now I'm working on getting back to forfilling dreams but find it difficult believing in myself.

      Perhaps you can find a way to stay in your field but perhaps in a different way than originally planned?

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  • wordsncolor
    wordsncolor Doing 2 cheers 2017-11-16 05:17:07

    Finally talked to Disability Resources. I guess since I was already dumping buckets of water out of the boat they shot holes in I didn't feel the overwhelming need to update them on how the sinking was going 😒
    "Oh, ya know.. Just swimmingly!" 😝

    Anyway.. I filled her in on my lil game plan to get my GPA back on the up and up etc. She's on board with the ideas. When I told her I dropped Research Methods because a C was too low, her lighthearted reaction of, "What's wrong with a C?" was frustrating.
    1.) because I wouldn't be floundering to get a C if they hadn't dropped the ball with accommodations
    2.) because it has become overwhelmingly apparent from multiple directions that as a disabled person I am supposed to be contented with a Bachelors. "You can do anything!" anything, mediocre. Our budget can only afford mediocre dreams.
    Don't get me wrong. Some assistance is better than the days of sewing wallets to sell on street corners. I just don't appreciate being patronized.

    Eddie Izzard - Career Adviser & Smoking
    Eddie Izzard Dress to Kill.
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  • wordsncolor
    wordsncolor Doing 3 cheers 2017-11-15 00:08:44

    Lightbulb.. A moment ago I remembered a certain truism.. When the situation looks hopeless, and you're told there's nothing that can be done, go talk to somebody else highe up the latter.

    Game Plan:
    🌀 Test esight in either Vancouver or Boston in December at the latest
    🌀 If it works, cross that bridge when I get there
    🌀 persuade disability resources to back me in altering my transcript
    🌀 Petition to have the 2W's removed
    🌀 Retake Research Methods, and Psychology and Language in the winter
    🌀 Petition FAFSA
    🌀 Take 303 in the spring, and another course of interest online over the summer
    🌀Petition to retake 301 in fall of 2018

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  • wordsncolor
    wordsncolor Doing 2 cheers 2017-11-08 15:12:38

    (Sigh) Had to drop my Research Methods class. It was too much 110% effort on my part to salvage the situation for what would be a subpar grade. It was a tough decision because there's no guarantee I'll get into the Masters program at the University I'd need to. They only accept six students a year. Every quarter I have to drop classes puts my Bachelors further in the distance also, including moving forward with the rest of my life, and providing better for my daughter. I guess what I'm saying is it's possible I'll come out of all this only with a Bachelors regardless. If I only wanted my BA I wouldn't be stressing like I am. You can get a BA with C's.....

    But you can't get into the Masters with C's..
    So I dropped the class ..


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  • wordsncolor
    wordsncolor Doing 4 cheers 2017-10-25 13:50:54

    Last night I finally had to write a rough draft letter to the director of Disability Resources about how them failing to provide necessary disability accommodations has impaired my GPA for three quarters now, and is potentially negatively impacting my, and my daughter's lives, both presently and in future far reaching ways. It was a letter I did not want to write, and I worry how it will go, but at this point I worry more about not being able to achieve the grades necessary for the Masters program if I say nothing .

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    • seekingmimirswell
      seekingmimirswell 1 cheers 2017-10-25 14:36:45

      @wordsncolor that sounds nerve-wracking...best wishes.

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    • hercat66
      hercat66 1 cheers 2017-11-06 23:28:27

      @wordsncolor Good for you for advocating for yourself. Most of us find it hard to advocate for ourselves, while we successfully advocate for others. So great job, shows courage and strength. Hope it all works out and you get the results you need.

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      • wordsncolor
        wordsncolor Doing 1 cheers 2017-11-07 01:00:37

        @hercat66 Well, I can advocate for myself alright. It's the bureaucracy of it that gets frustrating. You have to be very diplomatic even when your frustrations are entirely legitimate, even as you're getting royally screwed, otherwise you end up blackballing yourself. Suddenly, it takes people longer to call you back, a bunch of resources become unavailable etc.

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  • tazzell
    tazzell Doing 5 cheers 2017-10-05 10:22:54

    I appear to have hit the wall

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  • wordsncolor
    wordsncolor Doing 2 cheers 2017-10-03 16:21:29

    Had a meeting with Services for the Blind to update my assistance plan, and discuss what applying for their further support will look like .. starting to lay the groundwork.. it's hard to find any joy in being almost done with my Bachelors when all I can think about is how difficult it is to get into the Masters program, and everything I need to do to increase my odds, within the narrow constraints of my circumstances.

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    • Andia
      Andia 1 cheers 2017-10-04 09:19:52

      @wordsncolor from what I am learning of you I’ve no doubt you will succeed in this.

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      • wordsncolor
        wordsncolor Doing 0 cheers 2017-10-05 00:28:43

        @Andia I'm trying. Heh i've been having a lot of issues with Disability Resources ever since I transferred to this university. It's seriously affecting my grade performance ☹️ But if nothing else I am a tenacious little thing.

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