start writing again

My blog, Clumps of Mascara allows me to write articles/posts at least 3 times a week. I am also a columnist at MahoganyButterfly.com AND a new member of Clinique’s Insider Club….which means I write reviews for their products. While most would not consider “writing reviews” actually WRITING, I find so much joy in writing about beauty for Black women. I also get my intellectual writing in by blogging on my personal blog. I’ve even done a few poems and short stories. So it’s back!!

Writing is very, very me. It’s always been a huge part of me, of who I am. I was going to be a writer, a journalist, anything that would let me use my words. Diaries, stories, essays and studies – I’ve written since the day I learned how to. Until last year.

I have barely written a word since graduating university (apart from on here), and the fact that I have lost my writing is probably a big part in me feeling lost, feeling unlike me. And so, I really need to make it a priority to find my writing again.

Writing was once my thing, mostly short stories, and I had a couple novel ideas that remained unfinished. Then, I suffered a depressive episode, and since haven’t had any stories, anything to say or points to make, or much confidence either. Now my life is starting to get back on track in other areas, and I’d like to snuggle up to the old hobby again.

The words used to flow so clearly from my pen. Poetry, journaling, short stories, etc., etc. What happened? It’s like they’ve dried up. It’s not as though I have run out of ideas or things to say. My guess is that life happened. Hopefully I will get them back some day! The only thing I am writing these days are papers for class or form letters for work. There is not much creativity involved in that.

That may sound a bit arrogant.

but I can write beautiful things.
why did I stop?

I lost sight of what mattered.

I’ve writing this story, started writing it feb 2006 after getting the idea from a convo with my sister, and well i wrote 3 to 4 pages and then stopped, for that whole year. I got back to it last year to check it but i didnt add much. And the start of this year, i sat myself down and actually managed to write 2 pages of it but then again, i stopped and left it where it is.
So this day, i have decided, that i shall put as much effort as i can into writing it again and actually seeing it through this time not a page then stop!~
Baby steps for everything and i’ll take mine today.

I wonder, who or what sucked the words out of me

I got myself a little notebook again and just started writing. Now it’s about getting into the habit.

When I say write, I mean for myself.

I started writing when I was 10 years old. I got a lot of praise for a poem I made about coconut trees and that got me going. In high school, I was a staff in our school paper and I loved writing features. After high school though, I put down the pen and stopped writing. When I met my first girlfriend who introduced me to a world of serious poetry writing. I got hooked and started writing again. When we broke up I stopped writing. That was three years ago though. It was hell wanting to write but just not being able to.

Recently though, I’ve started again. Thanks to new friends and blogging. Yay.:)

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