Be myself

For the most part, I am…
But, I want to always be myself. At home, in public, etc…
I don’t want to be someone I’m not…
And also, I want to stay that way, for all my life..
I don’t want to change when I grow up…
I want to be me…

my I Ching bracelet a question, a serious one this time, as opposed to “What would be the effect of us visiting the Mini Bottle Gallery tomorrow” which was the question I asked it in Oslo, and got such a bad answer that agent Z refused to accompany us, and then the Mini Bottle Gallery turned out to be closed anyway ;)

This time, the answer I got for what would happen if I did this thing I had in mind, was no.29, the Abysmal, which at first glance looks pretty grim – there’s a lot in there about misfortune and falling into the abyss, and no entertaining magic tortoises or headless dragons to lighten the mood.

But I rather liked the judgement (and I hope the judgement is the most important thing).

The Abysmal repeated.
If you are sincere, you have success in your heart,
and whatever you do succeeds.

I find infront of some people i care what they think. I don’t want to care. I just want to be myself and if poeple like me how i am they do. if they don’t they don’t. i want to stop caring about what other poeple think and just be myself. If someone says something i seem to take it into heart and think about it. I want to achieve soo much in life but without poeple knowing who i really am i think ill struggle to get there. I hopee so muchh to be infront of anyone and act totally myself and not try to be anyone else. Some times im scared of doing things because of what other poeple will think about it.

Is cool because you are not pretending to be other people and I like that… I hope you all like this opinion take care…

XOXO

I can be the social chameleon. I know how to attract people. I have sacrificed myself for this. I used to hide my depression with it. NOw, it’s more a sense of hiding my evolution. I can see through people within seconds. It’s easy to see whether someone is false or rude or shallow…. and in the past I would simply walk away from these people…. but it left me isolated… so by act like I like them, it makes them want to have me around….

I guess I’ve sacrificed my power and masculinity to be popular…. to fit in

I start work soon and I’m aware of the importance of fitting in…. I want these people to like me if I am to be around them five days a week for the next year…. the last thing I want is to feel stress on a daily basis over just being myself…. but it’s hard because I want to be the strong male I know I am…. I don’t want to feel I have to entertain or put up with geeks or tards or uninteresting people just because we lack chemistry

I guess I’m still trying to figure out who I am exactly and who I’ve lost along the way…. I thought I had it sussed, but really I was forcing myself to expose myself to people I lacked chemistry with….

I shouldn’t feel I have to be anything more than myself

I shouldn’t feel I hate myself and that I have to put on a front

I shouldn’t feel that I’m not enough

I long for friends I can be myself around 100%. I have a few but I would like to lose some of my others and have more friends that would make this goal easier!

I really don’t care anymore. So many people in my life have disappointed me lately. After that happens so many times I have just gotten to where I don’t care what these people who don’t even treat me right think! I had 2 friends over last night. We were talking. One of my friends started talking about something I was interested in and I knew my other friend would think it was weird. The old me wouldn’t have said much, not acted too interested and let the subject die. But last night I decided I wanted to talk about this and hear what my one friend had to say and if my other friend thought it was weird then tough! I’m happy I did that!

I keep telling myself that I am, “Free to be me.”

well, just accept yourself and just be and don’t care what people think it is awesome.

I want to be myself in all situations, especially those social ones, where I meet with new people and don’t dare to be really me. I wan’t to be myself and stop thinking about what others might think of me.