send in a postcard to PostSecret

i WaNt To LiVe lIfE wiTHOUT THE FEAR OF BEING JUDGED !!!

on youtube i watched a short clip with postcards and pretty music, and i never cried so hard in my life from seeing the secrets.

i felt so connected to people, that people have the exact same secrets as me, and i cried for people because i felt bad for them that they had so much to hide.

i’m debating about whether to give up on this goal, just because i like to think i don’t have secrets, i know exactly how i feel about things. i know what is unideal in my life, and i don’t want to feel sorry for myself again. i want to get over my secret, and i am partly over it, so re-ivesting the time to make a postcard would be unhelpful because it would plunge me into depressive feelings.

i applaud the brave souls who sent in postcards, who needed someone to hear their troubles. i guess the only motivation for me to send in a postcard now, would be so that other people would know. so that soemone would see it. i think everyone wants to vent and tell their secrets.

the secrets also gave me hope too. it made me feel like wow, people really do care about eachother. it made me feel happy in a way because i could tell through all the pain and suffering in having a secret, it just goes to show, that we are the same and have the same feelings, and no matter how bad a situation looks, there is always hope.

i sometimes wonder if i know any of these people who sent in the postcards, if they walk among us i wonder if my secret would be seen by the person i want it to be seen by.

i ponder whether this goal is necessary for me.

“Tide like a notion knows time like an ocean” to the days, hours, minutes, seconds before I write…

I need to placate these thoughts/feelings blindfolded.

i want to send in my secrets to get them off my chest.

..and was all ready to make postcards, but something came up. I ended up telling my secrets in the midst of a fight and it ended up being very rewarding. It was almost shocking because I wasn’t expecting his reaction to be the way it was. He was totally understanding and caring. I guess it just goes to show that keeping secrets hid isn’t worth it.

I still plan on sending something in though…and then maybe telling someone else. ;)

Now..what’s my secret?

always read them , never contribute

It’s worth it, if only just to feel a part of something.

It bombed. Pretty much forgot about it, so yeah.

Okay, I’m going to buy a postcard TODAY and hopefully by the end of next week, it should be sent. Go me!