JudithKD "I ask to be made beautiful, like trees are beautiful" J Cameron
Ate 2 pcs raisin toast for breakfast (and my 2 sips of coffee)
Worked on the beginning of the memoir. 8:20am
How I did it: I didn't think about what I was doing and used this goal as a daily diary for a while. When I noticed what I was doing, I quit, which is normal for me. It's terribly frustrating, but it's part of the PTSD. etc. You feel unsafe when you repeat behaviors.
Lessons & tips: If you're like me, don't pat yourself on the back because it's working, just forget about it and do it some more.
JudithKD "I ask to be made beautiful, like trees are beautiful" J Cameron
Ate 2 pcs raisin toast for breakfast (and my 2 sips of coffee)
Worked on the beginning of the memoir. 8:20am
JudithKD "I ask to be made beautiful, like trees are beautiful" J Cameron
I’ve been working on the taxes, the convention, the farm stand, and the house. I’ve been busy!
jkd
JudithKD "I ask to be made beautiful, like trees are beautiful" J Cameron
It’s one of my oldest friend’s birthday today. Last I heard he was busy drinking himself to death. I wish he’d turn his life around, sigh. Can’t do it for others, wish I could!
This morning DH and I went for a walk. DH made oatmeal. Then I’ve worked on taxes and the con I’m working on and made lunch.
I’m entering what I eat into a usda site that is (of course) fairly clunky, but I figure wtf, it’s better than nothing.
Today’s madness?
I have (today, as of right now) got 19.8% of my total calories have been from fat. The recommendation is 20-35%, right? They give you a happy face to rate how you’re doing. and I’ve got a sad face for this.
Hello? I think 19.8 < 20, don’t you?
wtf…a programmer goofed, or something.
Anyway, I spent a few minutes this afternoon trying to figure this inanity out and finally decided it was what DH calls “brain dead software.” That’s the only rational explanation!
Took a walk 1:04p
Went to work. Came home had leftover soup from last night and toast for dinner. Made pudding for dessert.
Played around on the net and did some necessary chores for the convention. 10:29p
jkd
JudithKD "I ask to be made beautiful, like trees are beautiful" J Cameron
Woke up and read some. Took vitamins, drank hot water. Got my 2 sips of coffee for the day from DH, had a piece of whole wheat toast.
Took a shower, got on the net. 10:20a (boring huh?)
Made lunch (Millie’s Ital. soup, jkd’s walnut/apple salad) 12;04p
DH and I went to the bookstore, the market. He took pictures and I went to another bookstore (I got 2 books. A RD book on cooking food to reduce your blood pressure from the 1st bookstore and a trashy romance I’ve been looking for from the 2nd.)
We also went to a friend’s card shop and made tentative arrangements to go have a meal with them some Sunday and take them by the photography gallery where we’re on the board.
Then we went to the farmstand (work) and bought veggies and basil.
We had Tuscan bean/kale soup and water at a restaurant next to the 1st bookstore, and when we got home I ate the end of the apple/walnut salad.
Mind you, the restaurant with the Tuscan soup is known for their pastries and when I walked out of the 2nd bookstore, I had to walk through our local chocolatiers. Sigh. All I could think was I’d rather be alive than eat a piece of chocolate.
However, DH just indicated he wants some pudding. So I’m off to go make chocolate pudding. I’d rather tapioca, but it has an egg in it. The cornstarch pudding doesn’t and since I make it from scratch, I control what goes into it.
I sure hope I get used to this soon…life is getting really complicated!
jkd
JudithKD "I ask to be made beautiful, like trees are beautiful" J Cameron
Hmmm. This day was a bust, sort of.
I slept and that’s pretty much it.
I’ve been “trying” to come down with a cold for the past few days. DH went off to ride his century (100 miles) and I was supposed to do taxes. But I slept and slept.
I woke up periodically and did things. Mostly either make food or wash dishes. DH called that he was on his way home and I made dinner: broth with potatoes, peas and onions, and a little mozzarella.
But aside from that yesterday I ate 2 slices cinnamon toast, 1 yo plus yoghurt, 6 glasses of water, concord grapes, cream of rye cereal (breakfast) and pasta with the end of the previous night’s fresh tomato sauce (no cheese).
So I ate a fair amount of food and got no exercise, and I gained back the 2 lbs I’d lost the day before. :0( So I’m right around 130. I need to get to 125 at a minimum.
jkd
JudithKD "I ask to be made beautiful, like trees are beautiful" J Cameron
Woke up early, then went back to sleep. When I woke up again, DH brought me coffee (I had 2 sips) & oatmeal. Then he told me that work had called and they needed me to call, ASAP. There was a community festival today in their town and also a water main had broken and one of the principals at work had to go and work on the water main, starting at 6 am… so they were short-handed.
Later, when I called DH to come and get me, he’d just gotten called by a colleague overseas, so he was busy working.
I walked from work at the bottom of the hill up to the center of town, went to yard sales, looked at booths, the rummage sale, a c store, etc. I had one hot dog, a small bag of mini oreos and a bottle of water. Then I walked back to work.
They were running short handed, so I pitched in, assuming DH would arrive any time. Two hours later, he arrived. I’d bought a pie (at DH’s request) and we came home.
I had a small sliver of pie, and water, and we’re invited for pie tonight too. Sigh. Today has NOT been a good day for my new diet!
Judith
JudithKD "I ask to be made beautiful, like trees are beautiful" J Cameron
Had hot cereal for breakfast, worked on taxes/filing, went to work.
Left work at noon, went to town where doctor’s office is. Ran an errand, went by the consignment store, then went to the clinic.
Then I went to the health food store, the supermarket, and came home.
Went to work to buy broccoli. 6:29p
Food Journal: steamed broccoli w/ a little margarine, raw zucchini & tomato salad, the last (small) piece of custard pie (sigh), more of my metromint. (DH had in addition to the above some of the pork curry from last night.)
JudithKD "I ask to be made beautiful, like trees are beautiful" J Cameron
Worked on taxes/filing this a.m.
Also did laundry.
Went to work and just got home. 6:51p
JudithKD "I ask to be made beautiful, like trees are beautiful" J Cameron
Woke up with an answer to why/how do I deal with the paperwork and the perpetual filing that needs to happen? I have a system almost in place but there wasn’t any place except the kitchen table to put the stuff. I displaced some books I hadn’t looked at in a long while, and my backlog of NYRSF (both of which now need homes too) but I got an answer!
Did the required stuff shuffle from above.
Finished most of the compilation for the checking account for the 07 taxes. Started looking at our (not the business) checking acct for this year, found a problem and fixed it. (live help)
Did more tax/filing stuff.
Picked beans (hardly any).
Got things together to mail for my SIL and BIL (DH’s family).
Went to the p.o., the c store, the market, the bakery, and the farm stand. Planned dinner (risotto, corn relish and/or succotash).
Answered email.
Researched books online briefly. 6:35p
JudithKD "I ask to be made beautiful, like trees are beautiful" J Cameron
Worked on filing/taxes.
Wrote a 2nd comment to Ruth that I woke up thinking about.
Today, I’m supposed to 1)oil the top cabinets in the kitchen and 2) oil the table. Right now, that’s impossible as the table is covered in paper (taxes/filing) and I was supposed to have this stuff to our tax person YESTERDAY but I put it off too long! Sigh, I’m not always on time/ahead of schedule, yet. 11:49a
Had lunch with DH
Went to work.
Worked on taxes/filing some more.
Fooled around on the net.8:02p