stand up for myself

I tend to have problems with this…
Low self esteem affects my life once again…
If someone is saying something about me or something…
I usually just kind of sit there…and grind my teeth…letting people just kind of walk all over me….
I want to be able to stand up for myself…
And do something about things like that.

im not so good with this one
i tend to let people walk all
over me, cause i dont know how
to say know. and latley its been
getting me into a lot of problems
so im gonna try to be more
assertive. if thats the right word

im pretty sure i heard that off a
cartoon once, like the fairy odd
parents or something forever ago..
assertive…...yesh
thats gonna be me

because these assholes only care about themselves

People don’t really take advantage of me, but the odd time they do. I don’t really stand up for myself. And it’s not because I’m scared – I just dont know why. :S But I’ve got to change this.

YESSS! well I stood up for myself… actually it was more like I was standing up for someone else. but I want to do this more. A LOT more. I didn’t even think about it though, it just happened because I got angry. Next time I’d like to think about it a little more but still, it’s a rush.

I am terrifired of confrontation. Sometimes I think I get so angry with others who take advantage of me only because I know its my fault for letting them, and I only have the right to be angry with myself.

I’m sicking of people walking all over me like some doormat! I’m not having it any more and I’m going to stand up for myself! :D

i m fighting with myself.. everyday… to make a right decision…
its always my mental clutter… whether to stand for what is right or give up for the shake of peace…

I must find balance now.. as i have recover from my physical.. n after that two yrs of mental illness…

i now want to use my things for myself…
this comp when i made.. no one helped me.. i wasn’t expecting financially.. but when i was installing it.. everyone was keen to pass comments that its waste of money..
when i was planning for internet.. no one helped.. same comments…
but now everyone using my PC.. i cant say even it is PC…

for 4 years.. they just used my PC.. never cared abt its maintenance.. using it very roughly… n i really hate that…

for 4 years i m letting them to use it… but every day i have to hear that how selfish i am… when i ask them to get up..

sometimes they even didn’t let me to use it… been very arrogant… sometimes to hurt me…

the most imp thing is.. i dont want to keep this all going on… i don’t care whether i am selfish according to them… i must used to this thing by now…

i will be selfish.. bad.. egoist.. whatever i do…

i gave them a very nice proposal of using comp by setting some time… if they don’t want.. i cant help it…

right now i have kept my compu in kitchen that i can get some quit time.. that big risk for my comp… but expect from me everyone using it….

as they don’t want to adjust.. i don’t have any choice…

i m bad girl for years.. n i will be… then let it be…

i will buy a new lappy for myself after 3-4 months… then i will give this comp to them.. i don’t want to but still…

i need to say no…

There was a girl. She just wanted to fade into the background of a place called Secondary School. She felt confident around the friends she had, but didn’t really want to associate with others that she felt could bring her down, or had a certain personbality that just wasn’t nice.
However, not many of her friends liked her boyfriend. She then ‘thought’ she loved someone else, but realised how pathetically and stupid she was. Her boyfriend- he is the most important thing in the world to her, and she knew that for certain now. She felt like killing herself for what she did to him. She loves him like no one has ever loved anyone before.
So, she told the other guy she didn’t like him in that way. He reluctantly accepted. She acknowledged that what she did was wrong, but she doesn;t regret her decision at all. She is proud and forever and deeply in love with her boyfriend- the only love in her life. Aside from relatives, but that’s a different story.
But when it came to her friends, she was fed-up of doing things because she was worried of what people would think about her. But she loves her boyfriend so much, that she came out of her shell, and defended him. She would die for him. She finally had the confidence, and she’s happy.
Her boyfriend is the most important thing in her life. She loves him to infinity and beyond and will always. He makes her happy all the time, she loves his hugs and kisses more than anything else, she loves being with him, she loves his personality, she would do anything for him. She would die.
That boy is amazing, in her eyes. And he is what really matters to her. Well, a lot does, but he is top of everything.
That boy’s name is Joey. He’s my boyfriend.
I’m that girl. I’ve made mistakes, but I will NEVER NEVER do them again. Never. I choose death than that.
Don’t lose someone you truly care about because of others. Stand up for yourself, and shout to the world you love them. because I’m proud and am in love with Joey. And no one can ever stop me feeling the way I do about him…

I’ve done so much already, and now someone I’ve recently met, wants more from me than I can even handle at this point in my life. I can’t even speak up about how I feel. I feel smothered; like I want to run away. This is how I’ve always dealt with stuff. I don’t have the energy to discuss and explain everything to this person. I feel like there’s so much to do and now someone wants something.