simplify my life

perhaps a better goal is to think less and appreciate more.

Ok I have focused on 101 other things rather than shedding the excessive baggage the house and my mind holds. I have to tackle the house at least. The mind will hopefully start to follow suit. Today however I have to go get more photo’s for the Coalition, run errands, get back in time to work on a college program with a girl I am mentoring. My challenge to myself seemed to scream at me with a blinking light “YOU ARE DOWN TO 7 DAYS!” That is so anti-peaceful.

So here I go, the timer is set and the mad scamble is on. I usually work more focused under pressure, this may cause me to be harsh with the tossing of unused items ( a very good thing).

I know that I’m young and that I should have a hectic schedule but sometimes its just to much. I’m tired. The only problem is I don’t know if I can stop doing everything and chill out.

I would have never thought that this goal would turn out so great. I have pretty much gone through everything in my apartment, and sent what I didn’t need or wasn’t using to Goodwill. The last place was the kitchen and that was done tonight. I also gave up my cable, its nothing more than something i watch when i’m bored. I feel so good about this, not to mention i will save a lot of money. As a result the apartment that i live in is starting to feel like a home. Its been a while since i moved in and it just felt like a place to hold my stuff, but now it seems like its more.

i am so glad to slowly be removing the materialistic things in my life and replacing them with real memories

I really have made headway this week. It took a lot of self mumblings to keep me focused on getting things done before moving on to something different. The light at the end of the tunnel is out there(just well hidden). I was really angry and anger spurs on an active cleaning frenzy.. which also included being able to bag things up to get rid of easier. I just need someone to come along to set me off several days over the next week . heheh

I have gotten rid of a load of things. They are all packed up and ready to be sent off to the local woman’s shelter place. I feel really good to get rid of a lot of this stuff. It had just been sitting around collecting dust and some of the clothes I’m giving away have never even been worn. So now my room is clutter free and I feel a million times better and don’t feel so bogged down. And I’m seriously going to make an effort from now on to think about my purchases and if I really need more crap cluttering up my life.

I have gone through almost everything i own and sent things on their way to Goodwill. Its amazing how much better i feel, i would have never thought how much it would have centered me. I feel like there is so much more that i care about, once i removed all this stuff from my surrounds. I also discovered that my apartment is huge! I need a smaller place, which i would have never thought.

I feel like I am making one excuse after another in not achieving this goal. What I have accomplished is so miniscule it doesn’t seem worth posting. Next week the kids go back to school and perhaps my focus will be better with this. However I am moving on other parts of my life. I have begun writing again, started volunteering doing some photography work, and took the kids to COSI for a fun day. So the overall picture is better than it used to be.

Complications in life make it suck