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It was stressful, and I made lotion labels for her.

looks pretty good right now, except under my chin and my right eyebrow (which i pulled half the hairs out of last week stressing over my research paper)

My boyfriend is just as busy as I am, but he works out really hard 6 days a week! He looks amazing, so very hot. (Plus he’s the sweetest guy ever) He just keeps getting hotter, and I keep going downhill.
I weigh 148.6. It is a struggle for me to stay under 150 and I’m 5’5”. I get away with it because (not bragging or being conceited) I’m otherwise really pretty. I read that my ideal weight is like 134!
I’m getting a belly for the first time. :(
But I’m so busy and if I don’t focus all my attention on my eating and weight, I gain!!! I’m gonna try to meet this goal by the end of the year

One of the toughest 14 hours of my life. LOL
I got an A :D

148.6

here I goooo

I wrote down everything I got at the grocery store

It’s daylight savings time…fall back
how fitting :(
We messed up.
Having my own apartment makes things much more difficult to behave. He came over and woke me up this morning, crawled right into bed with me and cuddled up. It felt so nice. Pretty soon we were making out and kinda rubbing up against eachother and (Sorry if this is TMI) but I had an orgasm. That’s right,a fully clothed, no hands, accidental surprise orgasm. How does that even happen??? Well of course seeing that happen to me was way too much for him to handle and he started grabbing my breasts and I was pulling his hands away and telling him to quit. He actually fought me on it. I know he was caught up in the moment, but still! no means no. I reminded him that I’d promised him breakfast and that I was getting up to go make eggs. Needless to say he was very frustrated that I had an orgasm and that he didn’t get to.

I’m sorry too, but I didn’t mean to! I didn’t know that could happen. I really really want him. :( We’re not even engaged yet (that’s next year) and we’re not getting married til 2010. :((((
Now I’m reminded at why we stopped laying down together and decided not to go past kissing. It makes things way too difficult and miserable.

Lol, I haven’t even had sex at all yet. But we’re getting married in 2010 and then I’ll start working feverishly to complete this goal.
can’t wait!

147 even. Definitely reversing this right now.

this has been sliding for me since school started. I’m gonna knock it off

I made a flyer. I need to print and post them

I really need to start tithing though because I know that financial blessings come from God.

I’m getting way better at this! I could probably mark it off soon

145.6
bahhhh

I popped (not picked) one major zit on my cheek. It had a hard thing in it! Gross. It was ready, i did it and left it alone. My face looks so much better. I a lot less makeup today and I feel rather pretty :D

my mini-goal for this weekend is to keep it up and NOT PICK at my boyfriend’s hairs or pimples this weekend. I know he hates it.

My poor friend, that I’d like to be closer to, got hurt in a bike accident yesterday. She’s back home. I’m going to take her flowers and a box of staples (as a joke bc she got staples in her head) to make her laugh. I would love it if someone did that for me if I got hurt! :D please pray for her that she doesn’t miss too much work and makes a speedy recovery

is very severe. unchecked, I spend several hours a day with my hands on my face. It is almost constant.
In relation to how much I usually pick, I’m doing so much better this week. My face is healing really well.
My bf came and woke me up last weekend as a surprise and I was horrified because I didn’t have makeup on and he could see my nasty face. Worse, he told me how cute I was and tried to start making out with me..
I was really freaking out.
I want to be comfortable in my own skin, not terrified if I can’t hide everything

Being a great girlfriend is something that comes from being a godly girlfriend, and being a godly girlfriend is something that follows from being a godly person in all areas.

A friend from this summer wants me to be her accountability partner!
I want to take this seriously. I’m her armor-bearer and this is a huge privilege. I hope this relationship is an opportunity for both of us to grow. I want to be a true example to a girl who is slightly younger than me but looking for guidance on issues I’ve been through myself. Hopefully, this will be a great opportunity for me to be a friend.

To succeed I should:
1. Pray for her often!
2. Keep in contact with her online
3. Talk to her on the phone
4. Visit her in person
5. be there when she needs me
6. give her wise, biblical counsel
7. do thoughtful things for her
8. Love her!