Recover from my eating disorder

one huge step—my hair is growing fuller again

i’ve noticed there’s a lot less falling out in the mornings and throughout the day and now when i pull my hair up into a ponytail the bald spots are a lot less obvious

i’m on my way :)

2 months from anorexia,

5 months from bulimia

still trying, the harder i push it away, the harder it invades my thoughts and tries to stay, but I am NOT giving up

THEN: (Day 6)
this is it, i’ve come too far and i’ve finally decided to finally take control of my ED. nothing else was working, not therapy, meeting with a nutritionist, or EDA meetings so now I’m doing it on my own.

3 meals and 1 snack a day. NO EXCUSES, no calorie counting. i have to do this for my mom, my boyfriend, my grandmother, and myself. i want my future, and i sure as hell deserve it. there is no way i am going to die from this

NOW: (Day 15)
a little over two weeks of not being an active anorexic, it’s very freeing to not calorie count and to enjoy things again, but i still have to make sure i get my nutrients

i’m still paying for my mistakes, though

still dizzy, easily hurt (i bruised my ribs last weekend), and now i am in desperate need of a haircut because if it is shorter then perhaps people won’t notice how much hair i’ve lost

but still, trudging on in my recovery, here’s to everyone else doing the same :)

I just got back from a two week trip to Europe and I was diagnosed and started treatment for my disorder right before. Well, unfortunately, things got worse after those two weeks and now I have reached an “unhealthy” weight according to my doctor’s BMI index. I know this goal is going to take me a bit longer, but it is the most important and I beleive that Europe was the push I needed to scare me into really trying to get better.