angniks thought Cirque was awesome!! in Tucson is doing 18 things including…

stand up for myself

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angniks thought Cirque was awesome!! has written 8 entries about this goal

Strange- 1 year ago

learning to stand up for yourself- from YOURSELF. I think I’m getting better at shutting up that negative internal voice. Mostly, it’s getting used to paying constant attention to your thoughts. When the negative thoughts come, I simply smile to them, acknowledge their presence, and then dismiss them. (mentally of course) I don’t sit around smiling and nodding for no reason. That would look sorta crazy.
But here’s the thing. If I can stand up to me, then I think NO ONE else will be able to have that kind of power over me either. Someone can say hateful things to me, but if I acknowledge their words, and dismiss them, then they have no effect. Then I don’t need to stand up for myself in the sense of yelling back at someone, I can calmly deal with the situation and remain rational about the events. And this will help me on the Boddhisattva path.

Sep 09, 2007, 06:43AM PDT | 8 cheers | 3 comments


man 1 year ago

Yesterday I got absolutely bawled out by someone. But I was so shocked by this “bipolar episode”, that I just stood there like an idiot, with my mouth hanging open. I couldn’t even think of anything to say in my defense. I’m kind of glad though, cause if I had been able to speak, I think I might not have chosen my words carefully.

Aug 03, 2007, 06:14AM PDT | 4 cheers | 9 comments


oh buddy 1 year ago

I did today. I didn’t take no crap from that pushy, arrogant little you know what! I told her just what I thought about her nastiness! Take that! Then, she actually came back later and played nice. Because I told her off in a way that said your behavior is what irks me, not you as a person. Ha! Good karma intact, pushy lady in her place. Mission accomplished.

Apr 23, 2007, 04:53PM PDT | 5 cheers | 2 comments


I still can't say no 1 year ago

Anybody with a more dominant, bossy personality then me- I just let them tell me what to do. Ugh. I’m sick of that.

Feb 17, 2007, 06:45AM PST | 1 cheer | 7 comments


thoughts 1 year ago

Can I demand kindness and respect without being an a**hole? I think so.

Feb 01, 2007, 06:21AM PST | 3 cheers | 1 comment


blah blah blah words keep coming out of my mouth 1 year ago

The shrink lady said I HAVE TO START ESTABLISHING BOUNDARIES WITH OTHER PEOPLE. sO THEY DON’T TAKE ADVANTAGE (crap -caps lock)of me anymore. This is hard. I always want to please people. She says I have to start saying no, and I don’t need an excuse why not. Sigh. Then people will be mad at me, and I hate that. Oh fish paste. I’m in a sad mood today.

Jan 26, 2007, 03:35PM PST | 3 cheers | 3 comments


Untitled 1 year ago

Seagulls don’t take crap from nobody, so why should I?

Dec 07, 2006, 06:46PM PST | 1 cheer | 0 comments


Untitled 2 years ago

I never could before. Maybe I see things more clearly now. I’m not to blame for EVERYTHING!

Nov 14, 2006, 06:01AM PST | 1 cheer | 4 comments


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