pray daily

I did this today and yesterday.
it’s a real life line. God is amazing

...and yesterday I called in backup. My family was really under attack. My parents were really lashing out at eachother, it was sad and scary. I remembered about our fight being against powers of darkness rather than other people. I wanted to just leave at first, but this is my house, and I’m staying! Whatever has invaded our house can leave, not me! I even called my boyfriend to agree with me in prayer (where 2 or more are gathered…)
I know God wants to restore peace to my house

I need to do it more. It’s so easy to make life about religion, about what you can and can’t do and to take pride in yourself for doing more “good” things.
Its about a relationship. I want to love God more than anything. That’s my only hope. Not a day goes by that I don’t set aside time to talk to my boyfriend, no matter what. Because I make him a priority. God is way more important than my boyfriend.

God, please reveal your mystical powerful, personal love to me and open my eyes so I can see your true beauty, so I won’t be able to resist you. Rescue me from being bound up in religion, because I’ll soon grow to hate it and lump you in with it.

yesterday and today

I prayed today and read the bible. I told God how I really feel. I wrote it down in a journal. It’s kind of depressing, but it’s the truth. He promises relief from fear in exchange for faith and trust, but I explained that I don’t know how I’ll be relieved when my faith is so small. I asked God to help me with my unbelief.

yes, I feel guilty that this goal isn’t above losing weight and a couple others. I really do need to try on this one.

it makes such a difference. Please don’t let me forget
If you quit talking to someone, your relationship suffers greatly. You don’t feel close to them.
I need to connect with God every day on a real level. Where I shut out distractions and have some us time. I want to read the scripture every day and respond to it in prayer.

Today I read psalm 19 and reread Matthew 7 because its so amazing.
He says I have not because I ask not.
I asked for courage to do His will in our scary world
I asked for a closer relationship with Him
I asked for help showing God’s love to my boyfriend and being an example rather than a hypocrite.
I asked for our relationship to be pleasing to God.
I asked for direction in my life, what God’s will is for me
and I sensed that I can’t know yet, because I don’t have the courage to accept it.
So I asked for it.
And I just told God how much i love him and that I’m sorry for not showing it.