Weigh 140 lbs

My boyfriend is just as busy as I am, but he works out really hard 6 days a week! He looks amazing, so very hot. (Plus he’s the sweetest guy ever) He just keeps getting hotter, and I keep going downhill.
I weigh 148.6. It is a struggle for me to stay under 150 and I’m 5’5”. I get away with it because (not bragging or being conceited) I’m otherwise really pretty. I read that my ideal weight is like 134!
I’m getting a belly for the first time. :(
But I’m so busy and if I don’t focus all my attention on my eating and weight, I gain!!! I’m gonna try to meet this goal by the end of the year

which was a mere 2 pounds away.
I just struggled back down to 150.
Camp food is fried and horrible

142.2
I really need to try…
it’s hard to be motivated and say
oh well, close enough.

yes, 4 pounds might not sound like a lot, but it makes it so much harder to get motivated.
(my ultimate goal is 130)