stop planning and start doing.

You know what helps with this? Getting back on Provigil. I took it for a while with great success. Then I had this idea that I didn’t like using a drug to make me normal and went off it (though I kept up the Rx). Sure enough, I couldn’t keep things together. Without it, I cannot focus, my mind is muddy, and I never complete anything. Recently, I realized that I’m not winning this battle alone and started taking it again and, again, it’s amazing. I often wonder if this is what everyone else, my husband, my friends, my coworkers, feel like each day. I wonder if I do, in fact, need this to function and I wonder what that says about me.

Right now, though, I don’t care. I feel good. I’m getting things done and I feel healthy about it.

I had a couple of setbacks, but I think I’m on track again. First task, complete my masters project. I will have a draft done by the end of this weekend. Then I’ll have another week or two to put together the final draft and the presentation. Once that is complete (mid-May), I’m goign to start on cleaning my house which is a disaster because I hoard and am depressed and have been ill, etc. This will likely be a summer-long project, but it WILL happen.

I finally started painting regularly (instead of just buying more canvases and talking about painting). I actually entered a couple of paintings in an art show and though I didn’t win, there are on display in a local gallery. Also, I started selling my jewelry at the same gallery.

There are dozens more projects I have on my agenda and I’m determined to act on them instead of just talking about them.