its been pretty bad for a while. I saw her tonight. she means the world to me. She is my reason for not wanting to go out of state for college for so long, and she has a boyfriend now. he has replaced me. and it sucks. I have fucked up too, and i know i have cause i can tell she’s hurt but i dont know why. i love her to death. i miss her to no ends. i hope things changed after tonight. she keeps me alive. and i wish i could still do that for her but i cant help but be hurt by the fact that someone has taken my place. completely.