ever since i started attending church again, i poured my heart out to a pastor and after talking and praying for a few minutes, i find myself to this day feeling no more sadness. the black cloud has been lifted.

i am very happy and appreciative of my life and i suddenly feel this excitement for the future.

sure, once in a great while i can get a bit down but its not to the out of control point i was at before. its manageable.